reflections|snoitcelfer

the fates between people are not joint by blood but rather joint together by our hearts…

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there was once a child who took his father’s heart and ran away, wanting to sell it for money… As he ran, he fell, dropping the heart… The heart that’s all covered with dirt exclaimed ” my child, are you alright? “. That’s what parents are, always that forgiving… No matter how mean you are to them, no matter how much they seemed to have given up on you, you are still of utmost importance to them.

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Choices are inevitable in life. More often than not, we are forced to make decisions that may affect our future. Every choice available has its own pros and cons and its always what we value more instead of  which choice being the perfect one. No matter what it might be, if you’ve got to make a choice, make one where you will have the least regrets.

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Compassion… Something that desirable yet difficult to obtain.

Went to watch the special episode of zettai kareshi after kee ann told me how meaningful that show is. I must say, there is really something to take away from this show, learning the need to let go when its time to.

More often than not, humans are all so selfish, constantly thinking only for themselves. when it comes to love, its also the case… We seem to neglect the fact that sometimes letting go is also a form of love, in order for the other part to seek for a better future. whats the point of hogging on when you know she will be better off with the other? Maybe when you let go, knowing that she will lead a better life, you will feel much better than waiting for something that will never happen.

At the last part of the show, night pushed riko away from him… Sometimes, it really pains to let go, but we have to learn to move forward in life and not to look back. like what captain raymond once said, if you live in the past, you live in regret, if  you live in the future, you live in worry, so it’s better to live in the present… We just have to move on with life and thats the best solution to every heart wrenching memory that we might have.

Oh, and finally uni life has started for the girls. Its amazing how time flies with JC 1 days being just like a yesterday event. Now, everyone has moved on to a new stage in life, guys being “jailed up” at least 5 days a week and girls having a all new different kind of school life. I guess uni life will be really fun being less restrictive and stuff. But hearing from the girls, it seems as though it’ll be kinda hard to make new friends in uni with you meeting different people everytime. but looking at them go back to school makes you all so ready to join them in 2 years time. haha. apart from that, lets just hope that these 2 years of army life will be a smooth sailing one. (:

looking forward to the day when we finally get to pop again…

3 more weeks to go…

I feel so freaking weak!

Went to see a doctor on Monday after realising that my temperature seems to be escalating as minutes run by, got myself att C for Tuesday and manage to rest well at home thinking that i’ll be able to give my 101% when i get back to camp. Sadly, on Tuesday night, i know that i have yet to recover, but not wanting to miss too much of lessons for the week, i just beared through it and manage to go through all the lectures lined up for us.

Wednesday night, i totally couldn’t sleep with that sudden splitting headache… it was really unbearable, and to those who think that this is worth it since you will most probably get to rest at home, trust me… you won’t want to experience this. i manage to fall asleep till 2am, when i woke up to realise my body is all so hot. crawled to my thermometer to realise the most shocking thing of my life, having a temperature of 38.7 degrees Celsius. ): After which i couldn’t fall asleep again, cause the feeling was all so awful. i started to count down to reveille, which seemed all so far away, with minutes passing like years. when its finally time for everyone to wake up, i need to count down again to 9am when i can finally report sick. thinking that i’ll soon be attended to, and that i”ll be spared from my headache soon, i embarked on my journey for the very first time to the medical centre. kinda disappointed when i reach there cause i was made to wait for 3 freaking hours before i get to see the MO and the 3 hours of wait brings you the suckiest doctor i have ever seen. (>.<) wonder why such impatient people are worthy to be a doctor… how are the lives of people going to be in his hands with such incorrigible attitude. tsk. maybe medicine courses shall really consider the character of the people they take in…

Anyways, here i am on att C again. >.< 2 days of att C, and i hope i will really fully recover within this 2 days. hate the need to swallow down those pills which makes your mouth all so bitter… Hais, and this 2 days of att C is causing me to miss out on my gun drill lessons. Really don’t want to be lagging behind the rest… hopefully when i get back on Monday, I’ll be able to catch up on all the relevant things that they have learnt… Shall not think too much for now and really rest well… XD

for you whom is all so encouraging…

i finally see the need to work hard…

it may just be a simple word…

but it touches deep down my heart…

thank you…

I’ll work hard… (:

Had a super long break this week with a public holiday on monday and me on attend c for tuesday. Though so, having fever really sucks! i practically slept my monday and tuesday off after eating those medicine that made me all so drowsy and perspire like there is no tomorrow. Pretty glad that at least i finally get to rest well, but i think i have yet to recover fully… too bad, i’m booking in soon… 2 more hours to go! hopefully my temperature doesn’t rise when i get back to camp. (>.<) praying for the best and to stay healthy for the rest of the week…

i thought i’ll be supported…

but i guess i ain’t…

maybe when one is unlucky… nothing good will happen…

i wonder when i book in later…

what other bad things will be awaiting my arrival…

the melody of black glass kinda trigger off my emotions… as the soothing voice of kim hyung joon runs through my mind, everything seems so clear.

an accidental message got me to wake up from my dreams… i thought i have long forgotten, but i have yet to. the fire is still burning within my heart, just that maybe it is well hidden. this time round though, i guess its time to extinguish the fire and put it to an end. i thought it would have been the same, but sayings are always true – nothing will be the same as we move on. maybe its again my thinking-too-much, or maybe its just all so evident, talks are no longer possible.

indeed, 19 years of life, with an occurrence of regrets twice… how painful can that be? but i guess everything is just part and parcel of life, part and parcel of growing up to be a stronger man.

being in army, i must admit that at times it really stops me from thinking too much, with activities all lined up to occupy me for the whole day. at the same time, it can be really demoralising, with people who doesn’t speak before filtering out what they should and what they shouldn’t say. maybe sometimes one doesn’t really mean it, but words are as good as daggers, that can pierce that deep into your heart. everyone will want to work hard, but encouragement is what is needed i guess…